LEAKAGE

As a person I had many problems in life and I know I’m not the only one who had, most or all people in world. In dictionary problem means used to express one's lack of interest in or sympathy with the problems or misfortunes of another person. But for me problems mean is a way to think solutions. I always brag this answer in many people I meet that had problems. Because we always think that having problem makes your life ruin or should I say makes your life stressful. Problems make you strong, practical and superb.

I been alone when I was young, my parents are busy keeping eye to their business and my brother always hanging out with his addict friends and my two sisters are busy to their academe in school. Since that time I've been alone, I’m just watching television the whole day that’s why I’m also fun with cartoons. Until now my families stay the same,  managing their own businesses. I am now a college student and now I’m busy in my course and in my part time job. I used to be alone that’s why I’m cultured in doing things in my own, as now I’m a working student supporting my own financial needs. I’m kind’ a type of person that had pride. I want to spend money in my own hard work, in my own sweat and blood. As what I practice and seen to my family this is what they do and what type of people they are.

If I had problems I always find ways to solve this. Like problem in love, kidding J seriously my problem is hard to solve because I’m not too attach in this. I had problems to my family but I don’t know why it’s affects me. Since I was young I didn't count it as my problem because as what I see to them they don’t have any care of me, so I think I’m immune to them. But this time was not, I seen a scenario of family that you will visualize that they much love, care and happy family they seems to be a perfect family. Then my heart react to my mind, I feel jealous. Then I ask to myself why?  This question still pending in my mind. I fell like I’m the stupid young lady, sister and a daughter to my parents in the whole wide world.

Heartless, expressionless, careless and hardheaded these words are my excused of which I am before. Then I realized I done such senseless act to people not just them but to my family itself. Because of my ego I hurt people heart. I feel introverted of what I done. But I’m a strong person I have to face this problem and to say sorry to those people I hurt before for me it’s too late.